Mama, this, the here and now, is a season of your life. Just a season. Just like the seasons of the weather come and go, so do those seasons of motherhood. Right here, right now is not your forever.
I love my children. In fact, I look forward to having more of them! I can’t wait to hold a new squish! Want to know something else? I am so overwhelmed with motherhood some days. I feel like I don’t have time for anything else. Hobbies? People have hobbies still?! Because between changing diapers, wiping butts, making snacks, prepping dinners, kissing owie’s, doing laundry, running errands, surviving on little sleep (okay, you get my point) hobbies feel like a thing of the past. Honestly, I can’t even take a poop by myself (yes, I am absolutely talking about poop right now) without being invaded by tiny humans demanding something of me.
I think back, pre-children, and remember a woman who had time to do things she enjoyed. But I also think back to my pre-children self and remember a woman who had no clue how big she could love, how much strength and resilience she possessed, and just how far she’d go to protect her babies.
Since having my children, they have ignited a fire in my soul for all things pregnancy and birth related. I trained to become a birth doula and have a passion for supporting women during their childbearing years, as well as helping their family make informed decisions. Truth be told, motherhood takes A LOT out of me. Some days I want so badly to pursue my passion wholeheartedly but also don’t want to sacrifice any time with my babies. Do you ever feel like that?
Now, I am not in any way saying that women can’t pursue a career or other passions while being a wonderful mama to their babies- I personally know a handful of mothers who do, and who I admire and think “wow, you guys rock!” However, I don’t think every woman can balance that act or maybe more so, want to balance that act. I am one of them!
I have found myself remembering to rely on the Father for contentment in this season of my life- my babies are little. They are needy. Rightfully so, too! A friend recently told me “you are in the thick of it [motherhood]” She was SO right! I AM in the thick of it! This season, of my babies being little and demanding all of me, all the time, isn’t forever. I will miss this so much. I may not miss all of it (sleepless nights, I’m looking at you!) but I will miss my babies being so little. I remind myself that the most important work I will ever do will be within the walls of my home. “Children are not a distraction from more important work, they are the most important work.” -C.S. Lewis.
Blessings, love, and light. Xo,
Ashley
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